Thursday, August 21, 2003
Hey there Minakaye
just thought i would drop a line and say hey so HEY!!!!!!!
well gottaa run i keep forgetting to tell ya catch me online or feel freee to call when ever (weekend nights excluded)
Your hello means alot. Espesally plus the fact i’m reading it at 4:16 in the morning. I’m supposed to have my first day of school tomarrow and I can’t sleep. Why? because it is to believe that I’m going Blind. Litarlly… I just came from the Hospital… We stopped on the highway there and I couldn’t even read the sign that said AGENCY. The Doctor was a Total Ass! and I might not even get to go to my first day of school tomarrow. I was sitting in my recliner.. I dropped my lighter.. and couldn’t find it. I couldn’t see. I started bawling!!! It was right there in front of my face. My father saw how bad I was freaking out and took me to the doctors where I stayed until 300 am… now its 426am.. and agian I lost my lighter.. Im not gonna wake up my dad to help me look for it.. I feel bad enough.. so im gonna go without. so i’m supposed to call some doctor tomarrow.. at 800 am.. or in about 4 hrs.. and make an appointment.. my dad says it looks like i’m looking off in space. I was having a little trouble at larp
thats part of the reason i lay down all the time any more. Steve accused me of flirting with him when i leaned on him while suffering from a dizzy spell… ITs was funny tho.. he was just feeding me shit , but… I was trying to avoid the fact from people that I can’t see their face anymore. Bryon said he didn’t notice that I was.. He took my word for being tired i just didn’t want people to tell that i could make out their face anymore. I started feeling the affects about 6-7 weeks ago.. before i even met Trevor.. I ignored it thinking it was nothing… it has gotten progressively worse.. Tonight it really scared me when i couldn’t find my lighter. I literally thought i was blind.. I keep coming up with excuses to call it something else.. i’m still sure my dad is scared for me tho. i hate to think he thinks the worst just doesn’t want to admit… … … I haven’t cried in a while and i couldn’t stop. Bryon also thinks it could be related to my blood sugar level or could be cataracts, or a stigmatism, which are supposedly curable.
What are you doing Friday night? My father is Playing at the drake from like 800pm to 12. I’m tring to invite people. I dont want to be there by myself. so if your not working would be nice if you stopped by. Well… i”m gonna dwell in my world of dizzy ness and swerlled colors.. I’ll fill you in more later.
“The Greatest Thing You’ll Ever Learn Is Just To Love And To Be Loved In Return”