30th May, 2004. 9:54 pm. Nic Daniel
Sunday, May 16, 2004 9:31 AM
Hi, I’m sorry I didn’t email you on friday night, but I couldn’t get to a computer. I had to go to my dad’s house. He doesn’t have a phone. He lives in some wierd cabin type thing in Wapello.
I’m just sitting here at my computer looking up information on kittens. We found a black one in the shed yesterday. I think we’re going to name it “eight-ball”.
I had a really great time at the barn hanging out with you, I’m usually into more like nu-metal I guess, Rammstein, System of a down, that sort of a thing. I felt really bad that you had to leave while Sigma was playing. I left right after that.
I went to a house with some friends afterward, and we beat the shit out of eachother…
I really don’t know what to talk about…
Do you have an instant messenger program? like yahoo or AIM? If you do, send me your screen name, its alot more fun to talk real-time. Then again, it is alot more fun to talk face to face.
So, the thing on wednesday, at the wickliff or however you spell it, you dress up and act like vampires? sounds kinda interesting… does it have a web page or something? Ive got some cool acessories that might go well to that. Ive got a suit of chainmail, like the knights used to wear. It’s combat ready, and my friends like to test it out alot. I have a trench-coat and this really long cool-looking leather belt too…
well… out of things to say
Sunday, May 16, 2004 12:00 PM
Its cool you didn’t email me. I did try calling yesterday Night and your mom told me about how you were out of town with your dad. A Kitten! How cute. About how old is it? Short or Long hair? I’m into that music too. Sigma is just the only LOCAL band I like. I myself perfer metal etc too. System of the down was my favorite band for a long time. Yeah, leaving during sigma wasn’t that big of a deal, my dad was just tired and shit. Plus I get to go see them play at the Drake this coming Thursday so its no big deal at all. and i’ve seen them play like 4 times already so, yeah.
Yes I have messenger.
AOL- usedarubberright (I Dont really use this one)
The Thing On Wendsday is at the WhitCliff in By taco bell (Rooseavelt and Mt Pleasent Streets)
Its Called LARP Live Action Role Play. We Play Vampire the Masquerade. Its not a cult, its only a game. Pretend. There aren’t many people our age. Most of them or in their 20’s or older. A bunch of old Dungeon and Dragons fans back in the day, but honestly, they are my best friends and are very welcoming so i’m sure you’d fit right in. Are your parents religious because if so, then you might want to keep it on the down low. My mother thinks that its a cult. So, thats some fair warning. When I first started going I did a lot of dressing up for it. But now, like everyone else I dress pretty normal. I do dress in black alot when I go or a trench coat. It helps you to get more into your character. I dont think we are having Larp this wendsday because this coming weekend is VampFest. Its the BIG ONE. People from out of town come and just about everyone wears costumes.. espesally during the Halloween Vampfest because then we have a Masquerade ball. But I dont think my costume will be ready in time, but oh well.
Find out what you are doing Thursday, i’d like for you to accompany me to the Drake if your willing to go. And if we dont have larp wensday then i will be bored and we should see if we can hang out then too. Anyway, Lost For words. Hope to hear from you soon. TTYL.
PS: I liked hanging out with you too.
Tuesday, May 18, 2004 11:05 PM A BEGINNING
You know, I wonder about you. How you are doing in that head of yours. I think about seeing you, hugging you, and kissing you again … wondering if you think of me at all, Maybe? Maybe not? As I was up tonight, writing this to you, I wonder how you will take it? As someone being too emotional too quick, or just a little odd for writing someone a love letter for whom she barely knows? Maybe, but I like to say what I feel when I feel it. Girls are one big ball of emotions, we can roll from liking you one minute to hating you the next, we have to keep you guys guessing, you know.
At times I can’t find the words to say what I mean in person, so writing it down when I think about it, helps me get my point across. All I know is you are someone I want to spend time with, and have fun with, someone I want to get to know better.
I don’t know quite what it is about you that drives me so wild, but I hope in some way I make you feel that too. Being with someone new is sometimes a little awkward to me at first. I don’t know what my partner likes or how to tell them right away what I really like. You asked me why I got butterflies when I kissed you. I’d like to try and paint a better picture for you. I like the feeling of being in your personal space, so close to you I can feel the heat of your body and hear your heart beat. A kiss brings you closer to another person. A kiss is like a window into what the other one is thinking and feeling. It’s exciting, wet, fun, playful and passionate. I enjoy kissing you; it feels good, your strong arms wrapped around me, holding me tight. You are so attractive to me, so I hope you don’t mind how much I love to run my hands over your body. Your touch is so satisfying.
I love to talk with you. You’re blunt and to the point, like myself, sometimes vulgar, but always funny. We don’t always agree on things, but that’s what keeps it interesting.
Anyways, I just felt like letting you know.
Thinking of you in many ways,
A Desire Fulfilled
by Rewa Malhotra
Lying besides you silently,
Your lips pressed against mine
The Aroma of tobacco,
Filling my nostrils.
Your fingers playing,
With my hair,
And mine with yours,
The warmth of your touch,
Firing my emotions.
We break free,
Monday, May 24, 2004 5:06 PM SECOND THOUGHTS
No you weren’t annoying me at VampFest. I just felt a little bit overwhelmed with too many things on my mind. I wanted to spend time with you, yet at the same time my Gaming buddies were getting seriously pissed because I wasn’t being involved. But it was worth it because I wanted to sink in as much of you in as I could. No, Never second best, Just a perfect memory of what I loved in the past and thought I could never have again. Yet, here you are. I didn’t leave Jake for you. You were just what finally gave me the guts to leave him. But understand he will always still be there, because he is my friend. He and I as a relationship didn’t work from the eginning and just about everyone saw it. And actually you where a first for one thing. I normally split with my ex’s and don’t find another for months. And I completely doubt anyone else will come along unless what happened to Kip, happens to you. Which I doubt. You would have to meet Jake to understand. Why are you paranoid? Which emotion do you feel when you say emotional? Why dont you think it felt right? What made it wrong? What would have been correct? In my life I’ve never met another person who moves me like you. You’re the one who’s right for me, and when you’re away, I feel lost. I like you so much, that it’s difficult for me to tell you just how much I care for you. I want to make it a special time for us to share our feelings and explore our hearts. Our emotions shall take precedence over all else, and we shall have each other to hold in our hearts. I only feel complete when we are together. Waiting to see you agian…
PS: Are you having second thoughts about us?
Wow, I really didn’t know that we felt the same way about each other. I thought you might be getting annoyed by me at VampFest, the way I was popping in and out…I have two major worries that I must express to you:
First: You say I am like Deja Vu to you. Does this mean that I will always be only second best?
Second: You left jake for me. Does this mean that you will leave me for whoever comes along?
I don’t know, maybe I am just paranoid. I know maybe we shouldn’t get emotional so quick, but at least for me, it is a little too late. I’m… Hooked…
Well… I figured out what my problem on saturday was, I was nervous as hell… I don’t know why… it didn’t really feel… what’s the word… Right? I don’t know.
Well, I have found myself thinking of you all the time… Reliving every moment that we have been together, longing to gaze into your beautiful eyes. You are so great to me…
Well, its almost time to get out of class, so I have to go…
Thursday, May 27, 2004 11:00 AM
You make me feel loved, you make me feel safe, but more importantly, you make me feel wanted. Something that I hadn’t felt in a very long time. We both knew our friendship would grow right from the very first day we spoke. But, neither one of us could begin to imagine the love we both feel, not exploding or thundering into our hearts, but just slowly growing into a beautiful relationship that only you and I can understand. We don’t even need to be together, we are never apart. You are my soul mate, my best friend, my inspiration, my love.
Abweichung (5/29/2004) 9:47:05PM):
Hey Babe! I was just thinking of you, and got on yahoo to see if you were available to talk to, guess not. I had a GREAT time last night. Absolutely wonderful! Sooo… Can I count on doing things like that agian? I have never been happier in my life than when we were lying there afterward. It was nice when you laughed too :P. Hmm… Well, g2g, But i’ll talk to you later I guess… Love You Lots!
MinaKaye: I’ve been thinking about you all day. Where did you get to online at? Cause your computers broke. Technically it wasn’t last night. It was this morning. Both times it was like that for us. It really fucks up my schedule. LOL. No.. dont count on it again. Its a spur of the moment kind of stuff.But thats what makes it so much better. Never knowing when its coming. LOL. Did you get home safe and sound and out of trouble. Its really been running thu my head on weather u did or not. Just worring about you. So tell me every grusome detail in life right now. Get back to me. Consider yourself Ravished. – Mina Kaye
Abweichung(5/30/2004 6:37:22PM) Blah, Not on Again *CRIES* Well, I’m kinda nervous because my mom is cleaning downstairs and I have… Less than legal stuff down there…. She already found my Bong! LOL I said it wasn’t mine.. SHe thinks its my brothers.
MinaKaye: If you need to hide anything, i’ll be willing to hold them for you. What does your Screen Name mean anyway? Did she question you at all? Has she said anything about me lately? How is your Dad? How are you? I MISS YOU! Was your internet working all day today? Cause mine wouldn’t work. You’ll have to set a certain time to get online to I can talk to you. Cause Kerk wont be in town for a week. He’ll Be in Florida. Graduation Present. I told him to take pictures… ALSO… make sure you clear your Converation History “For safety reasons” I’ll Talk to ya later. (Pokes your nose) “BOOP” *KISSES* -Mina Kaye
clit_ring88 (10:08:21 PM): I’ve been thinking about you all day. Where did you get to online at? Cause your computers broke. Technically it wasn’t last night. It was this morning. Both times it was like that for us. It really fucks up my schedule. LOL. No.. dont count on it again. Its a spur of the moment kind of stuff.But thats what makes it so much better. Never knowing when its coming. LOL. Did you get home safe and sound and out of trouble. Its really been running thu my head on weather u did or not. Just worring about you. So tell me every grusome detail in life right now. Get back to me. Consider yourself Ravished. – Mina Kaye
Nik: he, i don’t know if it was you but someone called here and my mom came and sat the phone next to the computer and didn’t tell me someone was on the other end, so if that was you, sorry… I found one of your dad’s credit cards in the couch on the back porch, its a worn F&Mbank check card. soo, is Kirk out of town now? if not, when does he leave? Do you think he will take his chainmaille stuff with him to florida? If he is near the beach, the moisture will kill the metal. Man, people are pissing me off, trying to tell me that i’m a poser… it’s annoying as hell… they don’t even know me… It seems that everyone started hating me during the last week of school… and all my friends are moving away… they all were seniors, they are going out of state…
Nik: but I still have you, right? That’s all that matters to me. The rest of those fuckers can go suck on a toad for all i care… omg it pisses me off though, you know, stupid little peoploe that think clothes are what determines what you are… I’m a fucking anarchist, and no matter what they do, they’ll never be able to understand the state of mind, you know? This message might be a little hard to read, because its just a random assortment of thoughts… I’m feeling kinda down right now, i really really miss you….
Yahoo! Messenger: abweichung has logged out. (6/1/2004 1:09 PM)
MinaKaye: Do you still have the card? can I come get it?