(Dwelling in my own self hatred)

Monday June 14, 2004
I miss Nik, *cries* I want to run in his arms and sit there for hours telling him how much I love him, cause after the past few days I’ve had. *SOBS* He’s the only thing that can comfort me now. NIK! Where ARE you! 

-Mina Kaye (Dwelling in my own self hatred)

Posted 6/14/2004 at 4:51 PM
Dwelling in self hatred usually does nothing but amplify said hatred. . .as the great Sir Winston Churchill said, “If your going through hell. . . keep going”
Posted 6/14/2004 at 8:57 PM by YickFou
haha bret said you guys had sex
but you never kissed.
im confused.
Posted 6/15/2004 at 12:50 AM by HotPinkGymSocks

Pimping out the NEW pimp hat

Monday June 14, 2004
HELL, I’ve confusing myself agian. YES adventureland itself was great, but there is so much more to it. The three hour drive wasn’t all that bad, just the leather seats stuck to my ass, But the German Lady that my dad’s work buddy married (Her Kids) were a living FUCKING HELL. Ok, the one that was older then me,(17) you would have thought she was 15. And she kept hitting me and telling her sister that she was gonna kill her for getting on rides that she didn’t like and then the other sister (Who was 13) was in charge of the one that was 17. But she talked too much. She practically worshipped the ground I walked on and thought I was oh so cool, and kept trying to get me to hang with them after the first hour of hanging out with them, I went to my dad and said, “Dad, … … … Make them go away.” So I made up some excuse (which actually wasn’t an excuse, it was my reason for going) but I said that I came with my dad to spend some quality time with him. So for the rest of the day I did. My dad is so fun to hang out with. But I was scared of a few of the rides so luckly there were other people there to go on those rides with him. We went to the lunch thing at the Palace. I barely ate, then excused myself from the table and threw up my guts. I wasn’t thrilled with that, but afterwards I started to feel better and was able to get on more rides that I wouldn’t before. I saw Bret there and his family. They sure didn’t seem thrilled, and Bret continuously avoided me. I was pissed. Mostly at that fact, and myself, cause the whole day I was wishing that Nik could have been there, and then I had to be confronted by my past, which for me is my biggest pet peeve, my past. I FUCKING hate my past, I was a nerd, a prep, a goth, a poser, an abused child, a self loathing … FUCK it… My past was bad plain and simple, and I hate myself for all my mistakes and BRET was one of them. Then I wrote about him in my journal the other day and this girls asking me the weirdest questions and then after a wee bit surfing of Journals I figure out that she was his girlfriend who recently broke up with him. HOW damn ditzy am I, so I really hope I didn’t ruin that for him. Turns out he has disowned ever dating me, which I can understand, and that doesn’t upset me much, I mean hell, what guy wouldn’t. They all tend to hate me in the end. But she said that he had lie to her about it, and truely, I dont’ think he did, because when I moved out from living with him, we never actually had a break up moment, and we never had a “will you go out with me moment” so honestly. I dont think that was it. I think we should call it a fling and leave it at that, But i still dont know why everyone over hates me. Pisses me off. And I didnt’ get to take my picture on the carosal. DO they have one of those at steamboat days? And I got to watch a couple get their picture done in airbrush, so that gave me an Idea. I should learn to airbrush, but where the fuck do you learn to do that? I have to find Brad Wishmeyer, or at least his kid Adam wishmeyer. Anyone got their numbers?

– Mina Kaye

OH PS: I’m Pimping out the NEW pimp hat at Steamboat days. Oh yes- you’ll know its the pimp hat when you see it. HAHAHA

Posted 6/14/2004 at 3:39 PM

did you guys do anything?
Posted 6/14/2004 at 5:26 PM by HotPinkGymSocks


Can’t sleep

Sunday June 13, 2004
OK- Its 3am, and I’m still not asleep. Me and Kerk didn’t end up going to the Gig. We drove past it tho. Sigma was playing. Now thats at least one band in the DAMN FORSAKEN TOWN that I can respect (Music Wise). I realized that the bugs wear gonna be too bad out there, so when we were drive away, Brandy calls and asks us if we want to rent movies and chill, so that was cool, we watched Texas Chainsaw Massacure (whatever) and some BLOOD DRIVE thing by Rob Zombie. The Man And His Finger. HALARIOUS! Got home about 11:30. Called my mom “So called emergany in South Carolina” I really hope she gets Deseree. I miss her so much. Me and dad went to Perkins to eat (I love their Spinach salads) and came home and I’ve been online ever since. I take it a lot of people know Bret Moore. I’ve had so many comments and emails about Dating him, and bitching at me for it. DID I DO SOMETHING WRONG? Well, I need to go to bed. Got to go to ADVENTURE LAND tomarrow. Lots of Love to the people I like and Lord shit on the rest of the world. HAHAHA.

– Mina Kaye JaegerMeister

Posted 6/13/2004 at 4:8 AM


argh, fucking rock stars.  i have trouble respecting any local band that doesn’t seem to recognize its own locality.

btw, have fun tomorrow!

Posted 6/13/2004 at 5:35 AM by Ithinkyoucanseeherkidneys
no i’m not saying you did something wrong.
i was just wondering if you did.
cause i just broke up with him.
he told me you guys never went out.
so he’s a liar.
and im pissed at him for lying.
i should beat him up, no?
Posted 6/13/2004 at 6:42 PM by HotPinkGymSocks


Tarot Reading

Currently Playing: Skillet

Friday- I woke up late. There isn’t anything to do. You think summer would be a blast, but not unless you have plans. The only thing to do is get a job, but when that happens, if something fun actually does come up, you can’t do it, cause you gotta work. I’ve been so blowing off the House Painting Job I had. It was so pissing me off. But my dad gets the two weeks after SteamBoat days off, so he’s gonna help me with that job hopefully. Then I’ll be able to learn what I am doing.
I was so bored Friday, and I remembered that Nik wanted his Tools for Making Chainmail back from Kerk (His Chainmail is So cool) so I talked to Kerk about taking them to him, but he sure likes to Dinkle Fart. We didn’t even head out the door till like 4:30. I knew there was no way we were gonna catch him home, but I did find my La Vie En Rose glasses on his back porch that I had left the night before. I was so thrilled to find them. So then we tried Amy’s House (Nik’s dad’s Girlfriend) His dads car was there, but the black neighbor said they were out at the river so we couldn’t get him his tools. What a bummer. I so wanted to see him again before the weekend cause I’ll be gone Sunday to go to ADVENTURE LAND with my dad’s work (MEDIACOM) yeah, my dad’s a cable man *BITCHES* and i’m so happy he is. Free Internet and Cable TV. I get every channel except PPV and Playboy (Damnit) hehe. But after the fact that he wasn’t home,  Me and Kerk went down to Handle With Care so I could get my Tarot Reading. I needed some direction desperately. Cause I have no Idea where my life is going.

My Tarot Reading Stated That:

Within the Next two weeks there will be a Change in my life.

My career- I should lean towards my creative side because it will get me far and i’ll accomplish alot.

My spiritual side- I should really get in touch cause I will make me go far ( I think it was refuring to getting into the wiccan stuff) But I will get shit for it (From People)

That an Oppurtunity will arise that I will be able to move with my mother. And I shouldn’t because I wont be happy. That was such a no Duh.

That a chance to move out of our house will arise. Don’t move. HELL NO i dont want to move. I love this house.

That i’m very Wishy Washy (True True) and that I should learn to control it because it can get me into some bad situations

That i’m regreting something

That a female teacher will come into my life, But she will be tough.

My financial situation wont change at home.

My mom will get my sister- but it will be the better situation of the two. She will be more restricted with Mom but I think, just growing up, it will be better for her.

Then I asked about my love life. And GOOD GOD did it ever blow me away. She said my soul mate will make a appearence in my life. Which of course is bizarre considering that was a big notion that had been bothering me. It was poking me in my gut, like if it was my intuition.

She also said that I should listen to my inner voice. That I above all people Can Hear It (unlike most) but I ignore it. And I shouldn’t do that.

And That I should stay on my birth control because within the Next six months I have a great chance of getting pregnant. She was like “ok this is gonna sound weird” she seemed almost like, Oh shit I got to say this. It was funny.

She said that a good friend now, will be there for a long time to come.

And that I SHOULD NOT, and she was very potent on this, I SHOULD NOT, get married at an early age.
then again I didn’t plan on it.

It really helped alot talking to her. I needed some direction. I also saw Bret down at handle with care. His hair is getting long. He looked so cute. Then again, he’s a cutie, but I still cannot believe I dated him.

Last night I couldn’t sleep. I was so horny, And I had lost my Porn Tape. So I stayed online until 4am looking for porn movies, downloaded them, burned them, and took them downstairs and had me a hay day. I haven’t came that hard in awhile, so I know I needed it bad. Then I fell right asleep. Woke up this morning LATE. Talked to Kerk for awhile. That Heather chick couldn’t come over. And Kerks not sounding like he’s gonna want to stay at the gig down at the Band Shell at Crapo for long. He’s such a party pooper. But It’s going on 4pm. I need to get ready to go to the gig. I’ll get on later and write more. PEACE OUT.

– Mina Kaye


ROMANTIC ONE. The really most most most important for you is that she/he is romantic. You love it to get love letters, red roses and be in a romantic atmosphere. He/She must make you think that you are the most beautiful of all. When he/she is romantic she/he has you got in his hands. When he/she tells you all that he/she feels for you ,you are devoted to him/her. At this point you are easy to be tempt. Your heart is soft and pure and you would never cheat as long as you love your partner. But if he cheats you, you are not hiding your feelings and show how much she/he hurt you because you trusted in him/her and never thought he/she could do this to you. You need safety in your relationship. You want to be sure in his/her arms, knowing that he will protect you and you can be totally devoted to your other. At this point you are very vulnerable. You open yourself and dont even think that he/she could cheat you. You totally trust your partner in every single way. SO if you find out that she/he lied to you or played a game this trust is broken. You may try to forgive your other but this will be very difficult.He/She has to be friendly and trustworthy.


Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/disorder_information2.html

Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships with others. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant to others. They usually shift blame to others and tend to carry long grudges.

People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. They genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived as humorless and distant and often are termed “loners.”

Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.

A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. They tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others.

Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.

People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. They also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.

Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. They tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.

Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. They are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidant people yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.

Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. They often remain in abusive relationships. They are overly sensitive to disapproval. They often feel helpless and depressed.

Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder is similar to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder. People with this disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything “right” often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.

Community Service


Walked in the door this morning about 9:40am, slopping wet. I can’t feel my ears. No one was available to pick me up from my Community Service this morning. Thanks so much fuckers. Shows how much you all care. And no one seems to give a shit about a teenage girl standing on the side of the road, slopping wet, HOLDING OUT HER DAMN THUMB! I thought that was the country wide known symbol for ( I NEED A FUCKING RIDE) or maybe they were just too uptight about their car seats getting wet. Fuck em’ I’m home, I’m tired, wet, hurt, etc. (Dont Forget P’O’d)

Slept Most of the day away. Dad got home, and we went to Eat at the Asian Star, I was so craving Chinese, Then we went to Hy Vee and Dad got my SteamBoat Days Ticket. Then I talked him into Going and Seeing Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Askaban. It was good. They continue to get better and better. Just I dont think it should be rated PG anymore. Try PG-13. Then we got to visit Nik and His mom. My dad carried a VERY long convertation with her. We didn’t leave until like 11:30pm. Nik makes me so happy.

I was having this curious notion, I have no idea what brought it on, but I think the turn out was the answer. The question of Soul Mates, something that have never really crossed my mind, or wasn’t ever important, has now suddenly become a continuous question floating in my head. Just the plain definition of it. Nik and I were laying side by side, so peaceful, and perfect. And I asked him the answer to my question, no certain reason why, so hint hint or sigificant meaning behind the question, I just wanted his view more then any other. His answer to the question was more perfect then any one else’s answers I have recieved since the topic started befundling me.
“A soul mate is like a lock and a key, It makes it full so that they are complete and work”
Unquote: something along those lines. He said it so perfectly. And I realised then why the question was strangling me so. My unconscience knew what I did not, That he must be the one. He’s the closest to the Helpless Romantic Renesaunce Man that I’ll probably ever find without it being Fake. God I hope he’s not playing me. Because I am the Lock, and I pray to God, that He’s the Key… … … …Cause I’m so tired of Searching… … … Maybe the supersiution was right. Don’t Go Searching for Love, Love will Find you. I’m just so scared i’m going too fast, Even for myself…

The deep yearning to share life with someone moves most of us toward relationship. Our hearts dream of a union that will add sparkle to the experience of being. When we fall in love, we find bliss and inspiration. It can be like sailing to a tropical island paradise. We are exploring new territory – the magnificently unfamiliar. We are in the honeymoon of a new beginning. ”

“Each of us when separated, having one side only… is but indenture of a man, and he is always looking for his other half.” Plato from the Symposium

John and Bonney Grey – “As in a spiritual tradition, we are called on in the new ‘tradition of two’ to do ‘soulwork’ – to expand our souls, heal our past wounds, and evolve as humans… How do you know when you’re with a soul mate? It’s not a matter of magic. You know you’re with a soul mate when you are both doing your soulwork… Unfortunately, many potential soulmates get lost because they don’t know how to do their soulwork together. They may linger in the popular definition, where upset feelings shouldn’t happen, where upset is a bad sign. This explains why so many people feel they have been with a soul mate – but then, somehow, lost them.” John and Bonney Grey, Becoming Soulmates.


I Couldn’t sleep at all Last night. I even smoked a lot and couldn’t fall asleep. My eyes were fixed to the TV, watching Three To Tango. What a romance movie, and I couldn’t help but think of Nik. How I worry about him so. Its been two whole days since I talked to him Last (I finally got to talk to him tonight). I finally feel asleep about 2:30 am. Being woke up by my dad and completely exhausted. Had to hurry in order to get everything done in time so i’d be ready for my COMMUNITY SERVICE. DUN DUN DUN. And was it ever hell. We had to help set up the stage for Steam Boat Days. Making Fences, Cutting Wire That wouldn’t cut, carrying the heaviest chairs i’ve ever had to pick up in my life, and filling buckets with water. I’m sore. I’m really really sore. Plus when I had to go I couldn’t get in touch with my Grandma, so I thought I was gonna be stuck there, cause I had my dad leave my keys with her. Dale and Lindsey was there, “WHAT a lifesaver” and they gave me a ride to my Grandmas which was right on the way. Samantha gave me a ride home, which was very nice, and I sat in my Recliner, ate and did not JACK SHIT. I’m still too pooped to poop. Tired, Overwhelmingly tired. Exhausted. Nevermind the fact that my reproductive organs are acting up agian.

Kerk Came over and we went to Larp, where I got in contact with Nichole, who brought me over to Handle with Care. Its like some kind of Wiccan meeting thing. ANYWAY, and there was some old guy that can read Palms… It looks like I’m not having any kids, but I will get married once. My health will go bad somewhere around my thirties, and i’m not ready for marriage. Goodnight.


Ok, So I got home that afternoon, from hanging with Nik and his Family. I called Nik about 5-5:30 asking to see if he could visit me, but he said he couldn’t, so I spent the night going about my day.

Its going on about 12:30 at night. I’m watching Practical Magic and there’s a knock at my door. Of course I’m getting up out of my recliner curseing and bitchin’ “Whos knockin at my door at this time of night. Stupid son of a bitch’s, My dad’s trying to sleep cause he’s got to work tomarrow.”  I walk up, Open the door, and theres my Fara Facett standing there. I’m so positive my jaw dropped, because that was the last thing I was exspecting. A very good surprise it was too. So my IT “hehe” says, “Hey, me and my friends are trashed, can we crash here?”  Of course, I mean people have done that so many times already, it wasn’t really a problem. So they chilled, and had brought some Vodka (Telling the story of how they got it). Adam W.  was with them. It was cool to see him again. He was definately a good party buddy. But They left. He stayed. I was so thrilled. So happy… and I had a good buzz going.  He was ripped off his ass. But Yeah, We had fun. More then once. He makes me so happy. I Love him so much yet i’m so scared to say I Love you, Even though i’ve said it once before. I was the one who said it first, and meant it, i’m just so scared to the consequences such a word as led me to before.

Nik hung out with me in the afternoon the following day and Kerk Got back into town, so we took Nik Home about 3:30. OH, My dad also came home during his lunch break while i was still sleeping from staying up so late AGAIN. He brought me a little Kitten. Its so cute. I have no idea what to do with it. Its so pitiful. Its a girl. Crackhead has been playing mommy with it since it came in the house. I’m so pround of crackhead. She so sweet, But she ain’t the baby no more and I dont know how to get attention from either of them now. But anyway, so me and Kerk made plans to chill last night, since he was back in town. We had leftover Whiskey. We got in touch with Allison, but she had to Leave for Washington Today. And she also “Got Laid” but by who wasn’t a pretty picture. *Shivers* eww.  Her mom came and got her for some reason so she couldn’t chill with us. About 11:30 Nik’s dad shows up, looking for Nik, AGAIN. … DAMN AGAIN. He’s left his house again. I can’t believe he’d pull that stunt two nights in a row. OK, I can understand one night, i’ve even done that before, but the weird think that upsets me is that, his dad is a very supportive, down to earth man, who knows just how big of a bitch his mother can be at times. So was befundles me is why the fuck doesn’t he call his dad instead of running the town. We didn’t know of many places to look, but both me and Kerk went with his dad looking for his. We even stopped by Wal-Mart in a desperate attempt to see if they were stealing shit again. Which that fact doesn’t bother me any, i’m just worried of what will happen if his luck doesn’t last and he gets caught cause even Tyson (the best of them all) got busted, And it was from Wal-Mart too. His dad didn’t say much. I think he was more worried then anything. Which is the main reason why I was upset. Ok, I can understand putting his mom in that situation, but his dad. He always talks so well about his dad, Why try to upset him too? So we spent a good hour and a half on the road looking for him. The dad even had me talk to his girlfriend Amy,  who said that over the weekend she had seen Nik, and he depended on me, anyway it was deeper then that, but she was talking like if I was planning on leaving him to do it easy, and I dont know, at this time, that was no where near the train of thought. After I got off the phone and started thinking, does he not think I dont care. I admit I do talk very nonchalant. Maybe I have said too many wrong things. So it really made me worry what I’ve been putting him though. But depending on the mindset i’m in, I know I do Love him.  And I’m happy. I just have to keep reminding myself that when i’m in a Low, But I realized for a fact Last night That I do.  I guess I should tell him that I do more, and then he’ll know I care.

I spent today being greasy and hot. And no word from Nik or his family. So i’m worried. I have no idea whats become of him. I pray that his parents understand what he’s been though. I hope they’ll be understanding. I hope they dont take him away from me.



Long Quiz: Take your time and send it on.
First off what is your name?: Mina Kaye
Have you ever fantasized about getting yourself cloned (either a same sex or opposite sex clone) so that you could date yourself?: No… if there were two of me EVERYONE would go mental…
Are you a good liar?: No
Do you like the girl/boy next door type?: No
Have you ever dated the girl/boy next door?: does down the street count? Then Yes
His/her mom/dad is pretty hot though, right?: OH yeah!
Do you fall in love easily?: No
How about out of love?: It is even harder for me to fall out of love than it is for me to fall in love.
Do you believe in revenge?: *evil Laugh* DILDO!
Are you someone who believes that there is one true love for you somewhere out there in the universe?: Yes
And when you make decisions, would you would rather be fair or correct?: Fair
At a restaurant, do you send food back if it’s not what you expected?: Yep.
When you spend a lot of time alone with someone, you begin to think of him/her as: Either friend, crush, or enemy.
Lots of people fall in love for the wrong reason. Do you have dental insurance, hotstuff?: That is random… I don’t fall in love for the wrong reasons…. I fall in love because of love.

Give me your best pick up line: Hi, Wanna Fuck?
Have you ever faked a British accent?: Yes.
Is love just A BIG FAT LIE?: YES. “Love” Means Lie

Do you believe in love at first sight? Yes
For blind people? Um…. at first sound maybe
If you like someone, do you usually ask them out?: Yup even though they always say no.
Would you ever go on a nude beach?: Yes
By Friday afternoon do you usually know what you’re doing on Saturday night?: Yes
Suppose a girlfriend or boyfriend that you were really into said one day, “You and me just aren’t right for each other,” and dumped you right there. Did you notice the poor grammar?: Heck no I already went into deep depression for 3 days in my room.
Do you have an easy time talking to strangers at parties?: Yes
If expense weren’t an issue, would you want a cell phone?: Yes
Someone tells you you have great nostrils, you: Start to pick my boogers.
Do you frequently listen to headphones or sing to yourself when you’re walking around?: Yep
Do you talk to yourself?: Yes … a lot.
If someone offered you a chance at the thing you wanted most in the world, but in exchange you could never tell anyone about it, would you take it?: Yes…. I would
What do you do after sex?: Lie Naked and Have a smoke.
Would you rather take an essay test or a multiple choice test?: Multiple choice.
Would you rather shop for clothes with friends or alone?: With Friends, for ophions, but then again alone, if its a guy so he don’t complain I take too long.
After you hang out with a group of people for a while, do they adopt your slang more than you pick up on theirs?: Yeah
Do a lot of people know the real you?: No… very few people know the “real” me.
Do you like having your picture taken?: Yes
Are you superstitious?: Yes
Aren’t babies incredibly special?: They’re just little humans… big deal….
And aren’t movies better when they’re based on a true story?: Not really
Do you truly have a favorite color–one color that, besides just looking good on you, you really love?: Qrange
Is smoking wrong?: Yeah it kills. HAHAHA
After you’re dead, would you rather be forgotten or hatefully rememebered?: Forgotten
What kind of movies do you like best?: Horror
Do you best express yourself through talking or writing?: Writing.
does )||( look dirty to you?: Kind of…
What’s your orientation, big shooter?: ummm WTF?
And how do you feel about age? Age Is just a number is has nothing to do with maturity.
Do you like someone taller or shorter than you? Taller!
Now describe the perfect body for a mate: Tall, muscular, long hair or weird style (mohawk… etc.) NO MULLETS and hot in freak clothes
Are you a StarTrek fan? Yes
What do you feel is the best form of contraception?: Condoms/Depo/Abstinance
And be honest here. How often do you masturbate?: Twice a week.
Have you ever performed a strip tease?: Yes
Do you believe it’s possible for two individuals to have an emotionless, healthy, sexual relationship (i.e., sex like rabbits, but without all those lovey-dovey bunny emotions)?: No…
This pie tastes like my bird: Your what? Okay then…
Do you think it’s important to find love?: Yes…. when you are mature and ready enough for it.
Backing up, let’s talk about your childhood. Were you a happy kid?: No
Are you abused?: Yes
Were you an only child?: No
Were you an only friend?: No
Were you Canadian?: No
Do you always wear underwear?: No
Do you carry condoms?: No
You think love is best nurtured by understanding, compassion, trust, or need?: Yes
In a relationship what is least important; good looks, personality, or sex skills?: Sex Skills
If you were really old, and married, and in love, whom would you want to die first, u or him?: Honestly: Me, because my greatest fear is being alone, But to be Correct, they should die first.
Do you own a midget who serves you sex in the night?: I wish
Is sex without love okay?: Its Ok, but now Great
Is romantic love without sex okay?: Yes
Have you ever fantasized about being or being with a prostitute or stripper?: I Have a Stripper.
Have you ever looked at porn on the net?: 24/7
Have you ever had cybersex?: Yes
Have you ever been photographed nude?: No
Have you ever been paid money for a sexual act?: no
Do you know how to fire a gun?:yes
If you could shoot someone and get away with it would you?: Yes
Have you ever cheated on anyone?: once
Have you ever cheated on someone repeatedly?: no
Have you ever worn leather?: yes
Have you ever stopped to consider that your skin is a type of leather?: Yes
Do you like to dance?: YES
Do you like to spend time outside?: Depends
Do you find thunder and lightning erotic?: Yes
Would you rather “make love,” “have sex,” or “f”?: Make Love
Now pick three adjectives that best describe how you feel about yourself: Muse, Weird, HelpLess Romantic, Hardcore
And, on a scale of 1 to 10, how sexually attractive do you find yourself?: 4