“Simple Kind Of Life”


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Your Thursday Horoscope, MinaKaye!
Financial news brightens your day. Look for the silver lining on your gold mine. A pointed insult meant for you is something that more than likely make you laugh. You have gotten over the past and today proves this to others. 

Once again… I had to walk to school.
Day really sucked…. I miss nik…
Can’t get him outta my head … I’m so depressed…
I don’t want to be with out him…. I still want to be dead..


“Simple Kind Of Life”

For a long time I was in love
Not only in love, I was obsessed
With a friendship that no one else could touch
It didn’t work out, I’m covered in shells

And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life
And all I needed was a simple man
So I could be a wife

I’m so ashamed, I’ve been so mean
I don’t know how it got to this point
I always was the one with all the love
You came along, I’m hunting you down

Like a sick domestic abuser looking for a fight
And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life

If we met tomorrow for the very first time
Would it start all over again?
Would I try to make you mine?

I always thought I’d be a mom
Sometimes I wish for a mistake
The longer that I wait the more selfish that I get
You seem like you’d be a good dad

Now all those simple things are simply too complicated for my life
How’d I get so faithful to my freedom?
A selfish kind of life
When all I ever wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life

Posted 10/1/2004 at 12:22 AM

Thursday September 30, 2004

Thursday September 30, 2004
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Your Wednesday Horoscope, MinaKaye!
Partnership intensity is bubbling over all day. You will be involved in energetic communication. One on one relationships are electric and filled with bold new ideas and some unavoidable drama as well.

Was depressed when I woke up, So I decided to Play dress up. I dressed Prepy. Strutted around in my leather jacket carrying a cappageno. LOL .I got so many complements. Then… to be even better. Today was picture day. So I was all set. I’m thinking about ordering copies… Cause I think it will be a good picture… I looked hot.. Even tho I was wearing pink again… I hate pink, But I look so good in it.. LOL…. I still can’t get Nik out of my mind. His dad asked when I had off yesterday and was supposed to bring him over to see me, but never did. My dad came home and had me fix an old lady’s computer, She was a major hippie and paided me in pot, which now I have no use for so I was thinking of saving it for when I can’t sleep or just sell it. On the way home, stopped at subway… and Mat was there, walking back home from trying to visit me.. It was awesome. We chilled in my room forever… Just jamming out and talking about absolute bullshit. Then we decided to come up with an excuse to have him spend the night.. He left the following morning… I really miss people spending the night with me…. fell asleep to Citizen Kane… Black and White movie.. I thought it was funny, but Mat didn’t seem too interested…  He said I roll around alot in my sleep… Damn.. Now I feel gay… I sqearm, sprawl, sleepwalk, talk, and kick in my sleep… … I’m probably horrible to sleep with… Thats probably why Nik never wanted to stay…. 

Posted 9/30/2004 at 12:19 AM

can i have a picture if you get them? :) i would really like one  thanks for talking with me .. <3
Posted 10/4/2004 at 5:53 PM by Broken_girl22

Tuesday September 28, 2004

Tuesday September 28, 2004
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Your Tuesday Horoscope, MinaKaye!
A new relationship could undergo intense transformation this afternoon. Something you say will imply a greater commitment. Being agreeable will get you further along in one day than a year’s worth of flattery. 

I Thought yesterday was killer. Today was Hell. It was all going good until I walked up to the school today. Nik’s dad walked my way. And of course wondering what was up.

I feel as if my soul is worthless. My reason for living has been taken. And I only wish to perish. Perhaps my situation really was a Romeo and Juliet Story. Only I didn’t really think that I would want to die. And never thought this much. After Kip I never wanted to fall in love. And yet I though life had finally blessed me with another chance. I tried so many times to keep myself tied off from men, that didn’t realize that the one I didn’t put my guard up for, would be the one to steal my heart away. His father says its best that me and Nik not be together anymore. I’d perfer to die first, but then I talked to Mr. Cahill, and he said that sometimes if you really love someone, you have to set them free, to know if they’ll come back. Then again he also said that if I leave him, he’ll be looking at females within the next month, probably the following 2 minutes that he is let go. I don’t want to leave him. I’ve never been happier then when I’m with him. I wish for no one else. Then It took this for me to realize everything. But whats worse was the fact that it was right outside of school. And I stormed into school, locked myself inside the bathroom, and cried for several periods. Not only the crying sobs… The crying BAILING, wailing at the top of your lungs crying that you can’t help or stop and it just goes on forever… And it will probably be worse tomarrow. Steve (Nik’s Dad) Has Nik tomarrow… I’m supposed to set him free then…
I’m still crying. It hasn’t stopped all day. I was told to think of the positive and think of what good came out of it all. I’m a better person because of him… But I’ll be a lonely person without him…. I Love Him….I Can honestly say the one thing I never wanted to say to anyone again…. But I love him.


Posted 9/28/2004 at 1:41 PM


if you need to vent or something, send me an email.

sting has a song, “if you love someone, set them free.”  type o negative also has a song, “if you love osmeone, set them on fire.”  or you coul dburn his parents.  i dunno.

hope your week somehow improves.


Posted 9/29/2004 at 2:8 AM by Ithinkyoucanseeherkidneys

Sunday September 26, 2004

Sunday September 26, 2004
Spent day with mat
Went to Gmas
Went shopping
Came home..
Went to Movie with Rob.
Watched Dead Like Me…
Nik came over.
he rushed out door.
Day was ok..
Hung out with Tyler at lunch..
Ate subway at park
Walked home… Slept

Posted 9/26/2004 at 8:19 PM

Saturday September 25, 2004

Saturday September 25, 2004
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Sticking to your ritual will not slow the coming chaos. Staying indoors today can cause you to miss some excitement outside. Let the world see you and watch as soulmate energy doubles.

Went to the show at Crapo with Rob. I made some new friends. I Met Mat, Nik, Ashlyn, and Mike. I also saw Sam and Brandon. I gave them lots of hugs and kisses cause I missed them. Went crusing with Rob. Went westward and watched the Sunset… It was Priceless.  I got to see the inside of his house.. VERY HIGH CEILINGS. Came back home. Mat Ashlyn, Nik and his cousin came over. We all jammed out to music. Found out Mat doesn’t like Nik’s mom so I let him stay the night. It was all good… I didn’t mind the company anyway.
So… I’m not very newsworthy…… Later.

Posted 9/25/2004 at 12:16 PM

Friday September 24, 2004

Friday September 24, 2004
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Your Friday Horoscope, MinaKaye!
A project you have been working on for quite some time will suddenly seem nowhere near completion. Despite the setback, life goes on – a once in a lifetime opportunity for soulmate union will occur this afternoon.

Today… Has Sucked Major Ass.. I finally get permission to go to the Event and … I still can’t go… Shit took too long as it appears.. Niks not going which is a real bummer but I REALLY wanted to go.

Rob came over.
Dad brought home stripper.
Did drugs again.

From : Heather Strait
Reply-To : FlinthyllSCA@yahoogroups.com
Sent : Wednesday, September 22, 2004 2:22 PM
To : FlinthyllSCA@yahoogroups.com
Subject : To Whomever It May Concern:

I don’t know who is planning to daytrip this evnt, but
maybe Nest? She had talked about going….

We have a seat in the van, possibly 2 or 3, but I’ll be
leaving Friday night and returning early on Sunday.
Hannibal is going to meet me and the kids at NoMountain,
and then break camp and return later on Sunday.

I’m glad to take anyone, and we have a small mundane tent
to offer, as well as two period-style wedge tents.

Site fee is $8 for non-members, plus $5 for each tent.
We’ll be taking a cooler full of sandwiches and poptarts,
but there are several fast food establishments near the

This should be a lot of fun, but then I may be a little
biased….Gen, happy to be going to my first SCA home

PS- we are definitely daytripping next weekend to Deodar
(Cedar Rapids) and will have 3 spaces, if Siefert, Andrew
and/or Mina would like to join us, we’d be very pleased.

From : Heather Strait
Sent : Wednesday, September 22, 2004 7:19 PM
To : Mina Kaye
Subject : Re: Event


Well, I hope that Morgan didn’t get overly excited and
encourage the wrong weekend off….he gets details
confused, he really is “OBLIVIOUS”…(sorry dear, I love
you but it’s true)

Anyone under 18 years of age needs a minor consent form and
emergency medical consent form to attend an SCA event, **no
exceptions.** The feasts at these events cost extra, but if
you don’t order ahead, you probably won’t get tickets.

This weekend’s event in Grinnell, Iowa (NoMountain) will be
fun. I can take –4– people in addition to myself and the
children om Friday. Like I say, for one person with one
tent, it will cost $8 site fee for non-members (no national
card) and $5 for a tent. Plus food or money for food. I
would say a minimum of $35 not counting any shopping. I
will leave Friday around 4:00pm and then we’ll have 2 cars
returning on Sunday.

Next weekend’s event in Cedar Rapids (Deodar) will be fun
too. It will cost $7 for non-members. Camping is free, but
–we– will only be day-tripping. A cheaper trip, I think
$20 would cover expenses. We’ll leave (kinda) early
Saturday morning and then return late Saturday night. We
should be able to take –3– people for sure

I would love for Mina, Nik, and Andrew to go if possible,
either this weekend or next. If Adrienne would like to ride
with me, that’s great too, I can leave here later if it
helps….Just let me know!

(biased means “in favor of something unfairly”…I love
Grinnell/NoMountain because I spent some great times
there….so of course I want to go to the event there!)


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From : Heather Strait
Sent : Friday, September 24, 2004 1:11 AM
To : Mina Kaye
Subject : Re: Event

No problem for a costume, we’ll get you dolled up!
Morgan gave me his box full of paperwork, so I have a copy
of the waiver for your dad to sign instead of having an

Sound like we’re good to go! I’ll bring the camping gear!

I know Nik is interested, but haven’t heard back from my
last message yet….

email me when you can be ready, and I’ll pick you up then
come back and hook up my trailer…


From : Heather Strait
Sent : Friday, September 24, 2004 1:12 AM
To : Mina Kaye
Subject : Re: NeverMind

Nevermind… Forget my previous letters… Its just an
inconvienience anyway… Maybe I’ll be able to go to one in a couple of months… Take care.
Mina Kaye

Situation change???

Nik emailed and said he’ll wait til next week, but you can
come and see what’s it all about!

Just let me know!


Posted 9/24/2004 at 5:43 PM


Thursday September 23, 2004

Thursday September 23, 2004
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Your Thursday Horoscope, MinaKaye!
Organizing a grand project will only lead to disappointment today. Sometimes it is better to avoid making choices and thereby discover new things as they are foisted on you by circumstance and chance.

Today Was alright. Overslept. Couldn’t sleep the night before. Got to school. Got to ride in the Cable Truck agian. That always makes me feel big and bad. LOL. I worked on The mural inside the school with Kayla today. It turned out pretty Pimp. Came home. Mandee Showed up. I fell asleep on her. Slept until 8:30. Bad on my part, Cause now I can’t sleep. Doesn’t look like I’ll get to go to and SCA event anytime soon. This weekends’ sure not going to happen and I really doubt that I’ll be able to get next saturday off. I was really hoping to get to go with Nik though.. Spend some quality time with him, which never happens. I keep thinking about Nik. I miss him so much. Just lately its been so lonely. I have no real friends, my family is a bitch… And he’s never here. I feel so left out. Lonely. Alone… My greatest Fear of all. This shit is too hard, being left out, behind. I’ve been so tempted to just leave and be a flirt again. I was never alone then, But I know that ain’t worth it. I know it isn’t worth giving up what I love. Him. I don’t know that If I wait, if we’ll get our chance to be together. As of recently, I’ve been so alone, I don’t even know whats going through his mind. Am I just something to waste time on…  To be part of that intermediate period? I hear so many things about him at his school. How he seems to be such a pimp. I don’t understand why he wastes his time on me, when he could have those chicks which his mother would approve of and he would see everyday. Perhaps I’m just parinoid. Perhaps I’m just really scared to lose him. Yes… I am…  But I’m so tired of waiting. He’s the only one I have now. My friend, My lover… And yet I’m still so Lonely….Alone….
I’m Scared..

Posted 9/23/2004 at 9:41 AM


hey i just saw today (monday)’s date and it’s the 27th.  been one year since i met you at the dwellers show at the carrol banquet hall.  woo woo.

see you sometime later.

Posted 9/27/2004 at 4:45 AM by Ithinkyoucanseeherkidneys

Wednesday September 22, 2004

Wednesday September 22, 2004
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Your Wednesday Horoscope, MinaKaye!
An attractive individual showers you with attention, but you must consider what his or her true motives may really be. Acquiesce to the casual demands of authority figures. 

Oh Yeah. Last night was good. Nik came over last night. I had missed him SO MUCH. But it was good. Fuck the fleas. They won’t get in the way of my happiness. Woop.

Skipped school.. And so now I’m here… I need a smoke.
Went on a Shopping Spree with Kirk. I bought all that I pretty much need for VampFest. Now all I need is the basics Like eyeliner and Color hairspray. Thinks are good.

Dear SweetHeart,

I have received all your messages, but none has made me such an impression as last. How, my beloved, can you write to me like that? Don’t you think my position is cruel enough, without adding my sorrows and crushing my spirit? What a style! What feelings you show! They are fire, and they burn my poor heart.

My one and only, apart from you there is no joy; away from you, the world is a desert where I am alone and cannot open my heart. You have taken more than my soul; you are the one thought of my life.

When I am tired of the worry of work, when I feel the outcome, when men annoy me, when I am ready to curse being alive, I put my hand on my heart; your craftsmanship touches my skin, I look at it, and love brings me perfect happiness, and all is smileing, except the time I must spend away from my Love. By what art have you captivated all my facilities and concentrated my whole being in you? It is a sweet friend, that will die only when I do. To live for you, that is the history of my life I long.How long before you will read these words, this feeble expression of a captive soul? Oh, my adorable lover! I don’t know what fate has in store for me, but if it keeps me apart from you any longer, it will be unbearable! My courage is not enough for that.

Once upon a time I was proud of my courage, and sometimes I would think of the ills destiny might bring me and consider the most terrible horrors without blinking or feeling shaken. But, today the thought that my love might be in trouble, that he may be ill, above the cruel, the awful thought that he may love me less blights my soul, stills my blood and makes me sad and depressed, without even the courage of rage and despair.

I used often to say men cannot harm one who dies without regret; but, now, to die not loved by you, to die without knowing, would be the torment of Hell, the living image of utter desolation. I feel I am suffocating.
My one companion, you whom fate has destined to travel the sorry road of life beside me, the day I lose your heart will be the day Nature loses warmth and life for me.

I stop, sweet friend; my soul is sad, my body tired, my spirit oppressed. Men bore me. I ought to hate them: they take me away from my heart. Don’t be frightened. Love me like your eyes; but that is not enough: like yourself, more than yourself, than your thoughts, your life, all of you. Forgive me, dear love, I am raving; Nature is frail when one feels deeply, when one is loved by you.

Goodbye! I shall go to bed without you, sleep without you. Let me sleep, I beg you. For several nights I have felt you in my arms; a happy dream, but it is not you.

With All The Love That I Possess,
Mina Kaye

Posted 9/22/2004 at 1:6 PM

Tuesday September 21, 2004

Tuesday September 21, 2004
Your Tuesday Horoscope, MinaKaye!
Reach out and seek a quick agreement with a partner today. The art of diplomacy is something you can come to understand better as you negotiate this afternoon. Win-win situations are possible if only you listen to what the other person actually wants.

Finally Heard from Nik after the agonizing wait. It was so good to hear from him. I don’t think Our convertation went too well tho… He thinks I’m breaking up with him.. How does one break up with another if they are obsesed over the person?

Went to work.. It was ok… I don’t work for the rest of the week.. YEAH…  The only plans I have so far are for Saturday… I’ll be gone bitches.,… So .. If anyone wants to hang out.. This is the week to do so… Later.

Posted 9/21/2004 at 4:2 PM

Minkaye i want to hang with youuuu seen if we can meet up sometime like tomarrow or friday … if that works for you we can hang at the mall or something  just leave a post and let me know im trying to get my msn working again ill give you the address if i get it working
Posted 9/22/2004 at 12:6 AM by Broken_girl22
Posted 9/22/2004 at 12:39 AM by Broken_girl22

Monday September 20, 2004

Monday September 20, 2004
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Your Monday Horoscope, MinaKaye!
New beginnings commence. Some recent chaos was not a setback. Look at it as part of a grand design that held you steady until it was time to proceed on a long-term project.

Hung out with Tyler.
His parents are wierd.
Watched Excersit movie..
Ate rice
he has a really Cool Room.
Gave me sword and Incense Burner
took me home.

Posted 9/20/2004 at 9:1 AM