The Six of Swords card reversed suggests that you might be afraid to take a chance on love after rejection, loss or defeat, but sticking close to home or making excuses may only be alienating you from someone who could serve as a guide or friend. You may not be ready to take the next step, but this could be a warning that you’re ruining your own chances at happiness by being unwilling to compromise or afraid to try new opportunities. Leave behind old baggage that helped to form your comfort zone. If it isn’t working for you anymore, don’t keep going back for more. If you feel you are up the creek without a paddle, get out and swim for the shore.
Your persistence disgusts me. Couldn’t leave well alone could you? Here I’ve sat shattered and broken only to come to find out you lack any real remorse for my heartache. Go ahead, do whatever floats your damn boat, but you will not receive any blessing from me. Instead all I have left is bitter contempt. I expect a large gesture before your departure or I will wail in pain the moment you walk out the door.
The Six of Wands card reversed suggests that your relationship could be suffering from jealousy and miscommunication, or you could be involved with a high-profile but socially unacceptable person and are unable to publicly demonstrate affection or any sort of romantic connection. The cat may be out of the bag, however, due to a matter dealing with pride or jealousy. A struggle could result, but you and your lover may not be built to go the distance. It may be time to put yourself back in the dating game.
The Nine of Swords card suggests that you should try to contain your emotions until you have everything in order. Later you can retreat into your comfort zone and let it all out — the regret or guilt that sticks like a thorn and keeps you from confronting shattered romantic illusions. Be aware that the fear or sorrow hanging over your head could be taking its toll on your love life or relationship. If this torment is recurring, realize that it isn’t about what you have done to deserve this, but more about the natural consequences of something you have been unable to see clearly until now. This is about that moment of painful yet necessary realization. You know you can’t go on like this anymore — there is no going back. Inevitable change must come.
The Queen of Pentacles card reversed suggests that making material quantity or trendy indulgences the foundation of this Queen’s success or identity may create a false sense of deprivation, want or burden. Rather than finding pleasure or gratitude in earthly gifts, she may struggle with neglect, false sexuality, resentment or vanity or take superficial pride in spending money in an effort to keep up, buy love or entice a man. Be aware that you could succumb to her influence and fall into the same trap of living only for the moment. Humble gratitude and understanding for what has real value and meaning for you or simply honoring womanhood for her most abundant gifts and glorious, wild imperfections might be the message here.
The World card reversed suggests that you could be in a romantic rut, not taking care of business, unable or unwilling to expand your horizons, or relying too much on passive fantasy. Because of that, your love life, family planning or relationship could have come to a standstill or begun to feel empty. A new perspective or change of scenery may improve your options or make your communication less inhibited. Patience may be needed if you are inexperienced or have let heartbreak, fear or isolation keep you from going all the way or surrendering to love.
I really do have a wonderful boyfriend. After much recent conversation he’s really been coming through for me. I even got a massage before bed last night. Now if only the sun would come out and bring me out of this winter funk. Also, new goal. Lay off all the drinking. I’m getting out of hand and it can’t possibly be helping my recent depression. Hopefully I’m still able to go to Austin. I think some time away from the snow would really cheer me up. I feel like crying for no apparent reason, just a constant feeling of sadness. I blame it on winter, you bitter bitch you. Doesn’t help our gig at the Plamor Lanes was kind of a dud. Everyone left making me feel like I didn’t do well. *sigh* But it was wonderful to have the support of Knight, his family, and friends Waldo and Isaac and their lady’s. Well, off to band practice. Here’s hoping things get better.