be HAPPIER in your HOME

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Fantastic

Found this list on apartmenttherapy.com and was inspired! Hopefully it will inspire you t00!

1. Make your bed.

The book The Happiness Project, explains that this three minute task is one of the simplest habits you can adopt to positively impact your happiness.

2. Bring every room back to “ready.”

I learned this trick from Marilyn Paul’s clever book, It’s Hard to Make a Difference When You Can’t Find Your Keys. It’s a known fact: Clutter causes stress; order creates a haven from it. This mood-boosting routine is simple: Take about three minutes to bring each room back to “ready” before you depart it. (Unless you have a toddler, or a partner who likes to simulate earthquakes, three minutes should be sufficient.)

3. Display sentimental items around your home.

One reason that experiences (and memories of those experiences) make us happier than material things is due to the entire…

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Horoscope Wed 16, 2014

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I bet Knight would even appreciate these.

The Ten of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in completion. I celebrate and am grateful for captured moments of simple perfection. Satisfying my hearts desire connects me by example to love, beauty, pleasure, and happiness in those around me and gives me confidence to take it to the next level. “We made it.” Unconditional love makes a family and home is where the heart is, so at last, I am never alone. I am empowered by gratitude and my gift is emotional fulfillment.

Love Horoscope:
The Five of Pentacles card suggests that your perceived deficiencies, anxieties or cravings may only exist in comparison to the group that you feel is excluding you. Remember that you have options. You are a survivor, able to deal with the flaws of your partner and the cold shoulder from those who see your values as unusual or suspect. Either may be putting a strain on your love life. You can find strength in adversity, so don’t be too quick to curse your lot. Be willing to face the unknown hardships for the sake of future improvements, growth and acceptance. Soon you will be in a place where you can express yourself fully. For better or worse, you may still have each other as well as your faith that some good can come of this.

Life in the Shitter

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You think you know what you want, then life goes all topsy-turvy. Things backfire, people don’t come through, others turn their back. I don’t know whether to cry or explode with anger.

I thought I needed space from Knight. He wasn’t making the effort I needed him to. So after speaking with my sister who supposedly spoke with Tom. Everything seem lined up and fine. It seemed like an option. Had I only been told there was a problem sooner.

The drama with Knight and I wasn’t anything bad enough I couldn’t handle. It needed to happen. Compromises were being made. I was scared that we would have to break up, but I didn’t want to be unhappy anymore either. I could take the heartbreak of being with someone who couldn’t understand the moment of being surrounded by a thousand fireflies. I needed time apart to reflect and for him to hopefully do the same. But he kept messing up, doing the wrong things as usual, which sent me into a tailspin and I got mad and ran off several times. The final resulting in me just wanting him to get out of my face. I didn’t want to look at him. I demanded he go downstairs.

Mon July 7th 9:04pm:
I know my words are empty now, I don’t even deserve another chance at this point. I’ve let you down too many times. I don’t want to be a pity case anymore. You should’ve been kissed and often and I’ve always known how.

10:18pm: I really wanted to go out and have a few drinks tonight. Instead, I finished the dishes. I felt like it was time to do something that needed to be done rather then what I wanted to be done.

11:08pm: I’ll be asleep on the futon when you get back. I love you.

THE LETTER WHEN I CAME HOME:
Mina Kaye,

 I’m so sorry for all the times I’ve hurt you. It’s funny how I’m always called the patient one but in reality, it’s you who’s been the most patient of all. I can only imagine the emotional reserve that I’ve cause you to tap into i order to cope, in order to deal with my inability to be the man that you want and need me to be. I don’t deserve forgiveness or more chances, that is for you to decide. I just want you to know that nothing makes me happier than the thought of a one day wedding reception with taco bar and karaoke, and earthship, a future and family, even if it’s just a derby dog and cat.

I want to keep trying. For you. I will always love you.
Knight

Tuesday July8 4:55pm: I don’t want to lose you. I don’t want to hurt you anymore. The open relationship is over because either I’m done with that or everything I do in the future would cause me to be done with you and the thought of that right now is infinitely more unbearable.

I need you by my side, baby. Please, please come with me on this ride called life. I love you too damn much to give up now.

I would sell my house, retire from wrestling, and move around the world for you right now. I can’t bear the thought of us not being together anymore. I need our dream of having a home of our own, being together forever and being happy with you more than I’ve ever needed anything in my life. Please don’t give up on me.

Now mind you, Knight owns the entire house. When I met him, he lived downstairs, then he got roommates. But my sister started dating Mallaki leaving me upstairs and lonely, so I had Knight stay with me. As the boys put it “it made sense” to have them switch places. I looked at it as giving the boys more space, never as Knight would not be welcome back downstairs.

Wresters are the meanest people I’ve ever met. They misconstrued my words, backed me into a corner, and persisted to ream me an ass. Saying things like I should be the one to move out, I knew what I signed up for, he puts up with you too. I had no idea how to answer these things. I could understand me coming down there and it being a matter of inconvenience, but they made it personal. They said I’m putting the baggage of my drama on them. I have never felt so hated. They said I burden my sister and I should leave her alone. That she’s her own person and doesn’t need me. Her boyfriend can rot in hell. I broke down. I broke down hard. I could barely compose myself enough to get to work.

At work I put my happy face on and tried to do my work the best I could. I got a couple “you look like shit”. But I wasn’t dolled up like I normally do either. Knight went to talk with the boys, I guess to smooth things over and once again they complicated things.

Tues July 8 9:05pm: I only need to know one thing. Do you want to truly stay and love me or do you want to leave?

me: I truly love you. You are my everything. It’s just been so hard and after so many pleas and begin I had my doubts you would be willing to change. I wasn’t sure if I could take it anymore. I don’t see how you could doubt I love you. I would not have fought this hard for so long if I hadn’t.

9:12pm: I believed every minute babe but today is a different day. I want more then anything to fix it with you and I understand how much Desi means to you. The story I got from them insinuated you didn’t want to fix things, though, that you wanted a place to go first. But I will never be mad at you. I will be forever patient with you, no matter your intentions. I just don’t want to be lied to because the reason I learned to love again was you and I have all the faith in the world in you.

Me: That was when they cornered me and said I should be the one to leave. I screamed that you were the one that hurt me and they apparently didn’t hear the part where I said you and I had made a compromise. I seriously didn’t feel I could make my point while I was down there and felt backed into a corner or they obviously would understand already. I didn’t even get to explain what you and I agreed about you eating and bathing with me. I felt like I would say one sentence then get backed into a corner, jumped with points that I felt they didn’t understand anything I had just said. I said that I was trying to leave you then they jumped my ass about trying but they didn’t let me explain that you actually fought for me and we want to make it work.

9:28pm: They do understand that part now. that I’m trying to fix things, that you weren’t making me move down there, It was to try and give you space for the sake of us. I shouldered the discussion to move down there because it was mine to make. You simply requested it. They told me that you stated your intentions were to leave and you didn’t have a place to stay. That if you were trying to leave, I shouldn’t be the one moving. We’ll discuss it tomorrow over dinner, I don’t want you to get too emotional at work. Just know I love you and that you’re my everything. Sing something fun for me.

me: Well had I decided to leave you I would have requested time to find somewhere to go and to get on my feet. Fuck, they seriously didn’t understand a fucking thing  I was trying to say. I just wanted fucked space away from you. I wasn’t requesting a perminate thing. I wanted space to try and figure out what the fuck to do. But because of their complete disregard to let me explain they just made me realize how pathetic I am without you.

Stay home? Alright darling. I’ll be asleep on the futon, if you need anything don’t hesitate to wake me up or cuddle or whatever you need. I want to be here for you.

Me: I can’t be alone tonight. I can only put on a strong front for so long.

Then the worst happened. 30 minutes before I was supposed to shut down, I had taken a sip of my soda, somebody requested a song. I set it there for two seconds and Hammer whipped the mic cord sending my drink spilling everywhere. I wasn’t supposed to have my drink there period. I panicked and started wiping the drink onto the floor, but in my panic knocked the table sending the computer itself onto the floor. It busted. and failed to work any longer. I broke down again, bawling historically in the bathroom. When I finally told dan he didn’t seem worried and told me they were cheap and only 90 dollars. She apparently lied to me and told me 300 and preceded to bitch about being late on their mortgage and now they were down a computer. They are taking my pay to cover the computer. But who knows if I’ll just be let go after that is done. I came home, sat on the kitchen floor and broke down again. He came out to comfort me. I was no longer mad at him. I needed him and I realized in that moment how much he really did love me. “Don’t ever let me leave you.” I said. Because I realized I was nothing without him.

I cant do anything right.

I upset everyone. I wasn’t a good enough girlfriend,  a good enough best friend, a good enough sister, or a good enough daughter.

im w o r t h l e s s.

Everything that can go wrong, goes wrong
I’m a failure at everything; all I want to do is

lay down

cry

and die

I guess this is the part where I realize that nothing is ever going to go right and I should just give up on life.

not to self: never make plans to get out of your stupid and boring life because you are stupid and lazy and coward and will either freak out before you’re able to see them through or will simply fail because of lack of hability to do stuff.

Its hard to say what’s wrong when nothing is going right” – Sherif A. El-Mawardy
Okay … I will eat a bucket of ice cream now and cry until I can’t anymore

Tuesday, July 08, 2014

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Daily AstroSlam for Tuesday, July 8

Keep yourself mindlessly busy. The fewer specifics you have to deal with, the better off you’ll be. You can’t handle very much — so as long as you keep it simple, you’ll be good to go. The minute you complicate things, you’re totally screwed.

Aries Horoscope for July 8 2014: You want to get your own way, but that won’t be convenient for others. It’s especially important to be considerate of relatives. This may mean changing your eating or sleeping habits. Accommodating the group will be challenging, but it can be done. Give yourself time to get used to the new arrangement. When everyone sees how hard you are trying to promote harmonious relationships, they’ll try to meet you halfway. Don’t let stubborn pride undermine the important relationships in your life.

source: http://www.russellgrant.com/horoscopes_astrology/daily_horoscopes/index/2014/horoscopes-daily-july-08.html/tomorrows_horoscope/

It’s epiphany time, Aries. Prophetic Jupiter makes a beautiful trine to the Moon in your transformative eighth house today, which could signal a “lifting of the veil” moment. Your powers of perception will be amped up to the max, gifting you with an opportunity for personal transformation along the way—if you chose to act on whatever new information is available to you now. Keep your eyes, ears and heart wide open.
– The AstroTwins, Tali & Ophira Edut

Small appliances might break down today or minor breakages could occur, which means family members could have domestic arguments. Naturally, when things are frazzled at home and your daily routine is interrupted, it’s tough to maintain your cool. But Captain America can.

Jupiter’s incredible yearlong visit to your home and family sector is coming to an end, with the giant of the solar eclipse and the planet of luck and expansion moving into his final week. While you’ll have a chance to tie up loose ends and planetary support for another week to bring things home, the next 7 days will define your expectations for the coming decade, with a need to commit to cementing the basic structures and formulas of your life.

Daily Tarot:
The Strength card affirms that my alter ego today is the seductive beast of my Animagus, whose superpower is to master self-control to tame fears or impulses to prove of what stuff I’m made. I boldly go… but a willful heart is part of my secret identity. My infinite fortitude is seen by what I do, sacrifice or defy to stand up for what I feel is right, including admitting when I’m wrong, keeping out of it or not dignifying responses provoked by moral cowards and brutes. When resolve is tested I draw on the courage of my true character from the more savage or humble virtues of my natural instincts to maintain objective by composure. This enables me to hold my tongue against bravado, repress claws at empty threats, and not turn tail in pride against passion when it’s hard or inconvenient, but to persuade through self-restraint until assimilation is complete or resistance is futile.