Friday April 23, 2004



Chris: I’m On Now :(
Chris: I’d Love To Hear It I Cannot Wait.

MinaKaye: How can I send it to you? … Do I have to wait until your online or is their another way to put it on the internet? What hours are you normally Online anymore? Would my number be of any interest to you? God, I wish you were online… I just got back from Masterbating in my room… “Is That Bad?” hehe! AnyWay, email me, you owe me an email, because I know I was the last to email you. If anything send me links to websites or say whatever you find of interest because your words are the only ones I wish to hear… PS: I was thinking of you when I done it… *Winks devilishly*

Chris: You could upload it on the internet to some webspace on geocities and what not. You’ll have to make it into an MP3 though in order to save memory. You can find a lot of free software to do that for you. Otherwise just catch me online one of these days! :) *Hugs* I come on and off whenever I am not doing homework and what not. These last 3 weeks of classes are hell so I wont be on as often as I otherwise would be. Of course you number is of interest to me. Well its only bad in the sense its a shame you could have came here and gotten helo instead lol ;) ;P :)) Yes I do owe you an email and I was planning on writing you back this weekend! And I’ll be sure to send you some links and what not with that. I can’t wait to talk to you soon. Take Care :)

MinaKaye: I use Geocities, but I have no idea as to how to put it on the website. It is an MP3. Well, if you get some free time, you can give me a ring if you get ahold of someone with a cell phone that does long distance…
319-752-5307… would love to hear from ya.. .I get home about 2:30… and im home one wendsdays from then to about 4:00.. cause then I go to larp.. (Kisses And Hugss) Mina Kaye

MinaKaye: hey
ChrisSimokat: Hello
ChrisSimokat: How are you doing?
MinaKaye: fine… here… tell me if this works..
MinaKaye: does it?
ChrisSimokat: No it gave me an error message when I tried to download the song…
MinaKaye: fuck…
MinaKaye: I can’t figure it out!
ChrisSimokat: Try sending it across Yahoo for me please
MinaKaye: it really sucks
ChrisSimokat: I’m sure it sounds fine
MinaKaye: it was my first time in a studio.. It doesn’t sound like me. sounds like im singing though my nose with a bunch of flats and shapes
MinaKaye: sharps
ChrisSimokat: hehe
MinaKaye: anyway.. whats new?
MinaKaye: that number.. is that a cell phone or an actually phone?
ChrisSimokat: Its my cell phone.
MinaKaye: does it do long distance?
ChrisSimokat: Yes I can call just about anywhere in the world on my cell phone.
MinaKaye: call me…
ChrisSimokat: I can’t right now I’m on the phone with my Mom she’s still a bit upset about her Sister (My Aunt that passed away). Will I be able to call you around the time you said tomorrow though?
ChrisSimokat: This sounds nice
MinaKaye: … no it dont.. your full of it… sad thing is.. the song has been haunting me ever since… every movie i watch or places i go.. the song is playing…. I’ve now learned to hate it…
MinaKaye: I dont think i’d be home tomarrow… its a weekend.. i have no idea where i’ll be..
ChrisSimokat: Oh… =/
ChrisSimokat: But I really do think your voice sounds nice. You did a good job and you have a really nice voice
MinaKaye: thanks…
MinaKaye: i really dont know what to think…. its not my kind of music for one…
MinaKaye: not what my voice was meant for… … BUT OH… you should have heard the first version…
ChrisSimokat: Why should I have heard the first version eh?
MinaKaye: it was SOOOOOOO sad…. I heard it and started crying..
MinaKaye: if you called tomarrow… what time would you call for me to be home?
ChrisSimokat: What time would you want me to call?
MinaKaye: what time can you call?
ChrisSimokat: I could call just about anytime you wanted after I wake up lol… so sometime in the afternoon I suppose
MinaKaye: would you be up at 11am?
MinaKaye: 11:30?
ChrisSimokat: I can be
MinaKaye: would you try…
ChrisSimokat: Absolutely anything for you
MinaKaye: why so much for me?
ChrisSimokat: Why not, you seem sweet enough
Yahoo! Messenger: fadedambition has logged out. (4/23/2004 11:07 PM)

ChrisSimokat: Hey I’m really sorry I didn’t get a hold of you this weekend, my ulcers got the better of me and I spent part of the weekend at UIHC and then the rest I was either asleep of doing homework. Again i’m really sorry hopefully i’ll be able to get a hold of you this week!

ChrisSimokat: Mina, Hey there. Sorry its been so long so silent. These Last Few Weeks of classes (From now until May 14th) are absoulute hell from when I was absent plus I have to finish the rest of the required work in order to get grades for this semester otherwise I’ll be kicked out of school. So my attention has been focused sharply on that as of late. Sorry, I’ll try to get in contact with you when things calm down a bit, hopefully before the absolute end of the semester, but at the very least no later then. I hope things are going well with you, please keep up to date with what’s new and exciting with you. I miss you!

Chris Simorcat 630-452-9189
Mike 752-0979

Posted 4/23/2004 at 12:33 AM



Friday April 23, 2004



Friday April 23, 2004
You are Everything To Somebody
Right now at this very minute———–

is very proud of you

is thinking of you

cares about you

misses you

wants to talk to you

wants to be with you

hopes you aren’t in trouble

is thankful for the support you have

wants to hold your hand

hopes everything turns out all right

wants you to be happy

wants you to find them

is celebrating your successes

wants to give you a gift

think you ARE a gift

hopes you are not too cold, or too hot

wants to hug you

loves you

wants to lavish you with small gifts

admires your strength

is thinking of you and smiling

wants to be your shoulder to cry on

wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun

thinks the world of you

wants to protect you

would do anything for you

wants to be forgiven

is grateful for your forgiveness

wants to laugh with you about old times

remembers you and wishes you were there

is praising God for you

needs to know that your love is unconditional

values your advice

wants to tell you how much they care

wants to stay up watching old movies with

wants to share their dreams with you

wants to hold you in their arms

wants YOU to hold them in your arms

treasures your spirit

wishes they could STOP time because of

praises God for your friendship and love

can’t wait to see you

wishes that things didn’t have to change

loves you for who you are

loves the way you make them feel

wants to be with you

is hoping they can grow old with you

hears a song that reminds them of you

wants you to know they are there for you

is glad that you’re their friend

wants to be your friend

stayed up all night thinking about you

is alive because of you

is remorseful after losing your friendship

is wishing that you would notice them

wants to get to know you better

believes that you are their soul mate

wants to be near you

misses your guidance and advice

values your guidance and advice

has faith in you

trusts you

needs you to send them this letter

needs your support

needs you to have faith in them

needs you to let them be your friend

will cry when they read this

Posted 4/23/2004 at 12:33 AM



Ladies Night Out Friday April 23, 2004

Friday April 23, 2004
The other day, my friends and I went to a ladies’ night club. One of the girls wanted to impress the rest of us, so she pulled out a $10 bill. When the male dancer came over to us, my friend licked the $10 bill and stuck it to his butt cheek! Not to be outdone, another friend pulled out a $20 bill. She called the guy back over, licked the $20 bill, and stuck it to his other butt cheek.In another attempt to impress the rest of us, my third friend pulled out a $50 bill and called the guy over. I was worried about the way things were going, but she licked the bill and just stuck it to one of his butt cheeks again.

My relief was short lived. Seeing the way things were going, the guy gyrated over to me! Now everyone’s attention was focused on me, and the guy was egging me on to try and top the $50. My brain was churning as I reached for my wallet. What could I do? I got out my ATM card, swiped it down the crack of his ass, grabbed the 80 bucks,and went home.

Posted 4/23/2004 at 12:30 AM

Kissed The Frog – Friday April 23, 2004

Friday April 23, 2004
A man takes the day off work and
decides to go out golfing.
He is on the second hole when he
notices a frog sitting next to
the green.
He thinks nothing of it and is
about to shoot when he
hears, Ribbit 9 Iron………………”
The man looks around and doesn’t
see anyone. Again, he
hears, “Ribbit 9 Iron.” He looks
at the frog and decides to
prove the frog wrong, puts the
club away, and grabs a 9 iron.
He hits it 10 inches from the
cup. He is shocked. He says
to the frog, “Wow that’s amazing.
You must be a lucky frog, eh?
The frog replies, “Ribbit Lucky frog.”
The man decides to take the frog
with him to the next hole.”What do you think frog?” the
man asks. “Ribbit 3 wood.”
The guy takes out a 3 wood and,
Boom! Hole in one. The
man is befuddled and doesn’t know
what to say. By the end
of the day, the man golfed the
best game of golf in his life and
asks the frog, “OK where to next?”
The frog replies, “Ribbit Las Vegas.

” They go to Las Vegas
and the guy says, “OK frog, now
what?” The frog says, “Ribbit Roulette.” Upon
approaching the roulette table, The man
asks, “What do you think I should
bet?” The frog replies, “Ribbit
$3000, black 6.”
Now, this is a
million-to-one shot to win, but
after the golf game the man
figures what the heck.
Boom! Tons of cash comes sliding back across the table.
The man takes his winnings and
buys the best room in the
hotel. He sits the frog down and
says, “Frog, I don’t know how to repay you.
You’ve won me all this money and
I am forever grateful.”
The frog replies,
“Ribbit Kiss Me.”
He figures why not,
since after all the frog did for
him, he deserves it. With a
kiss, the frog turns into a
gorgeous 15-year-old girl. “And that,
your honor, is how the girl
ended up in my room. So help me God
or my name is not William Jefferson Clinton.”

Posted 4/23/2004 at 12:26 AM

Just Do – Tuesday April 20, 2004

Tuesday April 20, 2004
20th April, 2004. 1:22 pm.Just Do…I stared at my beer. “Drink” said the voice inside my head. I again was talking outloud. talking as usual to the damn voices in my head. I argued as usual. If I keep drinking, I’ll keep thinking, or If I stop thinking, and just do. Tolerating the drink as it washed down my system. Dwelling on the satifaction I wished I had constantly. The memories I keep of him, and joy he gave me. The voices meant well, but didn’t know anymore then me as to what to do.

Voices: You dont smile enough.

Me: Maybe cause I’m not happy.

Voices: What Makes you happy.

Silence for A moment as I think deep into thought.

Me: Him

So why dont you go to him?

Because he doesn’t want me.

Did you dare to try,

no, I know better.

Drink Some more

So I did. I swept past the point of thinking to the point of doing.
The voices said “DO”. So I Did. I picked up the phone and called him. Not thinking twice of what consiquences it could lead to. I couldn’t help it. Perhaps he was my obsession, But my normal obsessions were so sad complared to what it was with him. So do I love him, as I think I must not, for Love only causes trouble and thats why I lost him in the first place.

I left the dial tone close to my ear for a lengthy amount of time before I finally dialed the numbers in the order in which they go. Each slowly, Debating on weather or not to press the next. I hold the phone to my ear and listen to it ring. Each causing me to drown in anxitey all the more. He answers. His greeting so friendly as though antisipating my call, but thats just his nature. We carry a casual convertation with no worries or holding back because we are friends. His voice makes me smiles and the rain outside my window doesn’t seem to be there any more. I hadn’t realized that I had set down my beer, I guess I didn’t need the antidepressant anymore since I was giggling with joy to the sounds of what he spoke. As casual as possible, I pointed out without trying to cause sussipistion, if he’d care to join me over at my place. Not trying to get my hopes up, he was normally occupied with other plans.

What was I doing here? Did I really want to do this?
I knew it wasn’t all innocent. I guess part of me pretended it was, but part of me knew.

I’d never seen her in a dress like that. I don’t mean it was sexy, which it wasn’t, necessarily, but that I don’t think I ever saw her dress up that much.

That muffled sound of voices. And steps. That’s what I heard upon unlocking the door one afternoon after work. I was home a bit early. I looked towards our bedroom, wondering. As I approached near it, the door opened a crack.

“They’re fake,” I said.

Posted 4/20/2004 at 2:22 PM

Love Story

Monday April 19, 2004
One Steamy summer day at Trevors house you see the most spleaded creature you have ever seen. Their name is Mike , and every move he makes just turns you on more and more. You nudge your best friend Allison and say, “Wow, that has to be the most sexy body I have ever seen.” Suddenly, He looks in your direction and starts walking right towards you!!! He says, “I noticed you staring at me from over there. I just had to tell you, that I think you are lavish , and was wondering if you’d like to go to my Place with me and Fuck ?” With a stupid smile on your face you say, ” Why not? ” and go with him. When you finally get to His Place , He moves closer to you, and gives you the biggest kiss ever. The two of you are passionately kissing, when you feel a spike through your body. You fall over and hit your head. You open your eyes to find out it’s all a dream, but there is a note left next to your bed.”Yes, it did happen.”

Posted 4/19/2004 at 11:21 PM

More Than Buzzed

Friday April 16, 2004
MinaKaye: i’ve got myself a buzz but still wish to see the sight of you. your words incourage me so, and I wish more than anything to meet you or at least hear your voice to know how you truely express yourself… Perhaps its the alcohol talking, but want nothing more then to be with you. I want you… or maybe I just need to masterbate, whichever the case… … Maybe i’m more then buzzed… … …

Posted 4/16/2004 at 8:37 PM

Internet Stalker

Thursday April 15, 2004
I think I have found an internet stalker.Sunday, April 11, 2004 3:21 PM
hey cute what’s up
nm i just seen that u clicked yes to meetting me
y did u click yes to meeting me?
do u have aim or aol? if u do u can always im me at weemanvance0004
how old are u ?
u can always e-mail me back at to
hope to hear from u soon

Sunday, April 11, 2004 7:35 PM
hey it’s brad
thanks for the e-mail lol i’m glad that u think i’m cute b.c not to many pretty girls like ur self think so
so how old are u and where are u from?
sorry i dont have yahoo
i would get it but it messes up my computer
u should get aim so u can talk to me on there
it’s free

Monday, April 12, 2004 6:48 PM
well i’m 18 and from dsm
anytime u get on here and e-mail
i’d be more then happen to e-mail u back
i wish we could talk on the phone or something
anything is better then e-mail really
i dont know if u really wanted to maybe we could hook up and get to know eachother and person or what not ya know?
but till then we should find an easyer way to talk
write me back

Tuesday, April 13, 2004 12:14 AM
well u dont know where Des moines is?
yea we should figure something out and talk on the phone or meet up
wouldnt u want to meet?
i’d like to meet ya get to know what ur like in person and get to know ya
hope to hear from ya soon bye

Wednesday, April 14, 2004 3:58 PM
right now i’m just waiting to get out of hight school
i’m also looking for a job
i have all kinds of things i like to do
i like to hang with friends play the drums i love music
i like to play sports now and then i like working on cars
umm… i have blue eyes my fav color is blue stuff like that
i’m not sure what else to say
what do u look for in a guy?

Ok, By the 3rd email, Second Day, he’s already wanting to meet me… It sounds really freaky.

Posted 4/15/2004 at 3:47 PM